UPDATE 4:23 pm - I've decided enough is enough. The eating, the over-spending, self-indulgent bullsh*t has to stop. It's self-destructive, and I've participated in that game for far too long, my friends. Tonight at PT will be my own personal, symbolic gesture to say, "good riddance!" to the past two days of insanity. I don't know what fueled this behavior, but how I was treating it is obviously not the answer. I'm digging deep for this turn around. Tonight might hurt.
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I need a swift kick in the pants. Seriously. Since Sunday I've been in bad mood central. Monday night at PT, I felt like it was quite possibly time for my body to quit me. It was so not havin' it.
Tuesday I was "sick" and didn't go to work.
Wednesday was freakin' awesome. I was productive, excelled at work, went to church & crashed early.
Hello, Thursday, bringer of doom and McDonald's Happy Meals. Oops.
I'm in a major crankypants funk. I realize this and only have myself to blame. It gets worse: Major shopping spree including ridiculous shoes. And while I did need shoes, no one *needs* incredibly high, leather patchwork heels that make my toes cry or suede Steve Madden booties with thick ribbon laces.
*sigh* Commence with the floggings.
**at least I'm blogging about it. I know I'm in dangerous depression waters when I won't even mention my low moods...
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I don't understand the "no one *needs* shoes part," but I did understand the rest.
Why bother flogging yourself for what is past? You had good points & bad points in your week, but that's the nature of life. Seldom does one have the perfect week with no mistakes - whether they are food related or not. And, if you have been restricting a lot, maybe your body was just craving some hot grease (I know mine is), so you had a Happy meal (not the worst choice ever) and now you move on & have some veggies later, right?
It's not all or nothing, and moderation is what will get you through to where you want to be!
You are doing a great job with the working out! Think happy thoughts at yourself!
(I have more pep talks stored up in case you need them - just let me know.)
um, I'm gonna need pics of those shoes...... I think a kitteh COULD justify them!!!!
I've been in a funk this week too. I finally talked myself out of it last night. I wish I could somehow send some good vibes to you.
It really sucks to feel like you're at the beck and call of your spending and eating habits. Three times this week I had a cartfull of Gap items online and had to talk myself down.
Oh I'm sorry that you're not feeling 100%. I'm in a weird mood today too. You'll get back on track soon!
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