I could fall asleep right this instant. But I wanted to get this post written while it's still fresh in my mind.
I found it. Finally. My spark. My motivation. My burning desire to continue this journey.
Where did I find it? As corny as it will sound, I found it within myself. It has been slowly, sloooooowly coming back to me. Weight loss is just as much psychological as it is physical, & there was a lot of things I needed to process before I was mentally capable of getting back on track.
Now that my base is steady & on track, nothing can stop me. I start personal training in two weeks. Every time I think about it I want to vom. I am so nervous. But I'm also excited, because I know that this is it.
Life has handed me some very interesting situations over the past 5 years. I can see how every little speed bump, road block, & dilemma has shaped me into a person that is finally ready to work for and attain the life I've always wanted.
It's always been there, waiting for me. I just needed to buckle down, put in the work and go out & grab it!
I thought about deleting my blog archives and starting over. Because I really do believe I've been given a fresh start. BUT I find a lot of inspiration in those archives, and I want visitors to read them and realize that life happens in between 'beginning' and 'end' and that no matter what, the most important thing is that you keep going!
So, let's keep going!
Now time for bed! Zzzzzzzz
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5 comments:
Funny, huh, that the place we SHOULD find our motivation is within ourselves?! Good for you!! And yay for personal training, it's awesome, I swear by it!
Good for you and I think you are right - it's good to move forward, but it's also good to remember what we've done so far. Good luck!
This post makes me want to go running.
You sound great! :)
i was just thinking today that my motivation is sky high...I want to keep it there and really make changes rather than just talk
I have been having some motivation issues myself lately..I may have gone a little psycho also (I wrote on my blog about facebook stalking a friend to see who was fatter...not normal friend behavior)
Anyway, thanks for making me smile.
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